Daily Reflections – Higher Things

Saturday of the Second Week of Lent

Daily Lectionary: Genesis 27:1-29; Mark 8:22-38

My eyes are ever toward the LORD, for He shall pluck my feet out of the net. Turn Yourself to me, and have mercy on me, for I am desolate and afflicted. (Psalm 25:15-16, from the Introit for Lent 3)

In the Name + of Jesus. Amen. I’m knee deep in my own failure. Standing in my own filth like I’m standing in mud. It’s everywhere. I can’t get out of it. The more I struggle, the worst things get. I can’t breathe. I can’t free myself. I’m stuck.

I try to be better. Other people seem like they are getting better. They seem to have given up their sins. I wish I was as good as they are. I wish I believed like they do. Then I would be better.

My eyes get stuck on my own failure and sins. One sin leads to another like an avalanche of evil and failure flowing from me. I hurt inside. I hurt others. Soon the dominos of my fragile will all fall down, and soon everyone will know how much of an absolute fake I am.

Everything is just so dark and gloomy around me. I used to think it was the devil and the world that were so dark, but the older I get I see that I’m the darkness.

When things seem darkest, the Light comes! Jesus comes! He is my Light, my Salvation, my Righteousness! He comes to me in His gifts and I am saved.

In Him I’m holy. In Christ I’m forgiven. In Jesus everything is going to be more than okay: it’s going to be forgiven. Whatever I’ve done, however dark it is, has been taken on in His holy life and His bitter sufferings and death. His Lent is my Lent and the end of my sin. His death is my death dripped on me in Baptism. His Easter is my adoption before the Father.

When I fail, there’s no avalanche that will occur—not today. Jesus has fixed my eyes on His Cross. He will pluck my feet out of the entanglements of my sins and will rescue me in His mercy—even from the most desolated and afflicted places.

His Light will not only lighten my days, but brighten the days of others, too. He loves them, too, and wants them to be happy and uplifted. He loves me. I’ll love them.

I am going to have a good day, but because I’m good. It’ll be a gift because today is His day. He is every second, every minute, every hour of each day. If tomorrow comes for me, that day will be good, too. When my last day comes, that’ll be a bright day for He is the Light of the world and has fixed my eyes ever on Him. He will snatch me from the darkness. He already has. In the Name + of Jesus. Amen.